Even though it has been a challenge, this semester I have really enjoyed taking this class, Gender and Identity. It has challenged my beliefs, but most importantly made me turn to scripture to back up my beliefs. Before this class, I would have said I had beliefs just because the Bible said so, but I would not have had scripture to back up my beliefs. This class has made me challenge why I believe what I believe. Then I had to write those beliefs on this blog for other to read who probably did not agree with my beliefs. I had quite a task in front of me.
Besides blogging, the heart of the class was discussion. This was very challenging for me. I consider myself an outgoing person, but in a classroom setting I am a little less outgoing. I also noticed I became even less outgoing when as I realized I might have been the only Christian with my views in the class. There were a couple students who made comments that may have meant they were Christians, or some people said they went to church a couple times, but our views were still different. I think I was the only one who believed what I believed. This made me doubt myself, a lot. This also made me rely on the Holy Spirit, a lot.
A couple times I was able to talk about Jesus and share the message of his love, and for 5-10 minutes while I worked up the courage to share I would just pray in my head. "God, speak through me." I worried I would say something that was not biblical truth. I wanted to represent God the best I could. I wanted to present the gospel in a powerful and real way. I'm sure there were some times that I said things wrong, but I'm also sure there were some times when God did speak through me. Those times made everything worth it.
Who knows if my comments in class made a difference in anyone's life, but I feel changed. I feel more confident in the truth if the Bible and in how Jesus has changed my life.
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